I'm really tired right now, but not like I can fall in to sleep, I'm just tired, worn-out. I can't do this anymore. I haven't slept more than three hours a night since 2001, or maybe one or to nights. In 2001 they took my tranquillizer away from me. I can't relax now. I'm so scared of everything. Ok, I have got some new pills but they dosen't work. I want my old pills back!

What I have ate to day: Oh god I'm so embarrassed. It's so fucking much! Anyway, I had 2 buns, 1 panini with shrimps and 100 g chocolate. FUCK!!! I'm such a failure! I'm gonna end up like a fat and old lady. I'm gonna be so fat that I can't even go through doors.

That's all. Hope I don't bore those who reads this too much....

Take care!

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